So I’m lying in bed and I ask myself, what should my next blog post entail? I’ve come to the realization that I haven’t given a full introduction of myself. So, today I wanted to get a bit more personal and share with you guys who I really am and where I come from.
I was born in Brooklyn, New York. Growing up as a child, my mom would dress me and my eldest sister up in big, poofy matching gowns, which I hated. I always had a frown on my face wondering why we had to dress alike or even dress up at all.
In Elementary and Junior High School, I knew I wasn’t like the other girls. Believe it or not, I was an awkward, nerdy, shy girl. I dressed like a boy and never wore pink. In fact, I disliked the color and wouldn’t be caught dead wearing it at the time. I rarely wore dresses and always had my hair in a ponytail. I chose to wear sweats, jeans, t-shirts and sneakers. In my opinion, it was okay to dress more masculine, but it seemed that my peers thought otherwise. At that time, I was constantly teased by both girls and boys. I had low self-esteem and I no longer felt accepted nor beautiful. There were moments when I felt like if I didn’t exist, life would be better. Shortly after, I tried to change myself to try and fit in. Then, I tried cheerleading, which was an epic fail because I felt like an outcast; I was completely out of my element so I quit. Next, I discovered other sports such as baseball and basketball, which I fell in love with. Soon after, I found myself playing more sports, especially with the boys.
In 2000, I relocated to the Poconos; I was completely devastated. I was living in the boondocks with nothing but trees and animals; huge bummer. I felt I had no choice but to make best of the situation. So one day I decided to go outside and meet my fellow neighbors. There were a few guys playing basketball, I just stood there and interrupted yelling “I Got Next”, and they looked me as if I were crazy. They ended up letting me play and they were shocked to see that I could actually play. I was beginning to have more fun and come out of my shell. Although I wasn’t at all the “girly girl,” I was now feeling accepted. As time went on I got more comfortable, and I used my awkwardness to humor others.
In 2007 I moved back to NYC. It wasn’t until 2009 that I began to dress more feminine. I started wearing heels but I wasn’t quite into dresses as much yet. Don’t get me wrong, I still loved to wear my basketball shorts, T-shirts and sneakers from time to time, but I found a balance between the two. As I got older, I admired the different makeup looks I saw in the magazines and even on different television shows. In 2010, I purchased my first 120 eye makeup palette and from then on, I was hooked.
December of 2011, my close friend Ena, who is a model, always admired my makeup work and saw that I had immense passion for it. She then asked if I could do three makeup looks for her photo shoot. I created a natural, neutral, and a dark Smokey eye look. I was then told that photographer Carlos Peralta was the one we were shooting with. He has worked with many celebs and upcoming artists. Of course, I was honored to even work with someone of his caliber. I didn’t know quite what to expect. Going into the studio for the first time was a bit nerve wracking but I wanted remain as professional as possible. I felt as if I had been doing this for years; it was just the perfect feeling. I get butterflies just talking about it. Carlos loved my work ethic and even asked if I could come back and do more work with him at his studio. At that moment I realized this was my passion and there wasn’t anything I saw myself doing other than makeup.
My first professional photo shoot!
Photographer: Carlos Peralta CP Studios/ Model: Ena Adams/ Makeup: Jessica Clermont (Jlure)
I was always quite artistic and enjoyed making others laugh, so I quickly used that to my advantage and knew that this was something I wanted to pursue as a career. Ever since, I watched videos, read books and educated myself on the art of makeup. I then found myself applying makeup to friends and family. Soon after, I found myself doing makeup on models, attending photo shoots and even fashion shows. Biggest accomplishment to date were magazine issues in Vogue Italia and Baby Phat Social Media Campaign Photo shoot. It took me quite some time to figure out what I wanted to do, and who I wanted to become as a woman. Every day I learn something new about myself and find myself only getting better with age. My personal style and makeup techniques have definitely evolved throughout the years. This is just the start to my life and ongoing career. I am blessed enough to have gotten this far, and happy to share my life journey with you all.